Sunshine...

When its winter, it seems, at least in my case, that the things I need to do or should do, aren't really what I want to do, or have motivation to do.

But when there is a nice day, like yesterday and today, I am excited to get things done. Maybe I was in hibernation and waiting for a nice day. My windows were open last night and it was cool enough but not freezing and having the perfect temp breeze across my face was wonderful. Those kind of nights are the ones I crave for.

I would love to live somewhere where I would experience nights like these all the times, but I wouldn't appreciate them as much as I do when I get them randomly. I guess that is how it is most of the time.  You get too much of a good thing and you dont appreciate them as much. Still, I wouldn't mind having them more often, and would promise mother nature to love them as I loved it last night.

These kind of days I love just doing errands, or shopping. Thankfully I work tonight, so sleeping all day is going to save my wallet. But ah, coming out of a store with an awesome deal, and then out into the wonderful weather, can only make for a complete day.

I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know it’s not some place you can look for, ‘cause it’s not where you go. It’s how you feel for a moment in your life when you’re a part of something, and if you find that moment… 
it lasts forever… 

Leonardo Di Caprio

Packing...

I am moving on Monday, pretty excited. I got a ton of motivation after taking my dogs to the dog park, but as you can see I am now typing instead of packing or being any sort of productive. Maybe the lack of sleep is what is keeping me from doing that. My room is a mess, clothes on the bed, clothes on the floor, and odds and ends scattered around because I am not sure what I should do with em.

Monday is also the day I start losing weight and starting my new me. UGH. I love junk food, and well my ass apparently likes it too, as it keeps growing. I am going to lose 60 pounds by the end of my lease, which is 7 months. I have no idea how I am going to stay motivated. hmm. Maybe I could put a fat picture in my bathroom of me in a bikini and that will be enough motivation. Thankfully Lee Ann is moving so I will be able to stay more on track.

I may take a nap, my window is open, dog on my lap, and tiredness on my side. I love days where you can smell the warmth and the fresh air, its amazing.

(today kinda looked like this) :)

Want...

Gin and Tonic...

That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty, even if they're not much to look at, or even if they're sort of stupid, you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are. Girls. Jesus Christ. They can drive you crazy. They really can.

 - JD Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye

 So random. But that is so me tonight. Listening to Amos Lee. Texting a handsome boy that I wish I was with, and laying in bed with two cute dogs. Life couldn't get much better. It could get awesome if I had an old man's drink (gin and tonic) and that boy, but I can't complain. Amos Lee will do just fine tonight.

Believe...

yes, yes I do.

Work

There's no half-singing in the shower, you're either a rock star or an opera diva -Josh Groban

So I am going to be struggling this entire week. I work everyday 2-6 at a JCC as a counselor for kids after school. Not a bad job, just non stop yelling and chaos. I swear the teachers feed em candy right before they let em go, just to show us/their parents this is what they deal with every day. 

My other job is working overnights at a treatment center for kiddos who have been abused or neglected. I really like this job. With the occasional outburst or crisis at night because they can't sleep and rather test limits, its a do laundry, work on my computer, see em in the morning when they are sweet kinda job.

BUT, its going to be hard for me to stay awake, and to stay not sick. My immune system is already waiting for me to test it, so I am sure by tomorrow I will be sick once again. So today I work 2-6, drive and hour home then drive an hour back to work 10-7:30 am. Then only to drive back the next day sleep hopefully and do it all over again. This is what it is going to look like ALL stinking week. 

I am just going to cross my fingers, say a prayer and just look forward to being able to an entire week only working the 2-6 job, and moving in my new apartment next week. :)

Risks...

Here I am, once again, and hopefully here to stay. I lost my other blog, which was full of Africa, and I feel that hopefully this will be an awesome thing for me to look back on. Who knows, maybe it will spark some kind of thing, not sure.

Either way, I am excited to be writing, even if it is on my computer. I dont know what I will write, but I hope that even if it is just a quote I will write something. I loved this picture. I am a huge fan of photography and quotes. A true romantic I believe :) But I am totally ok with that!

I guess for tonight before I go to sleep and start one hell of a week (no sleep and working overnights, yuck) I will leave with a quote.

"Do me a favor... Stand up, walk to wherever the nearest window is, and just look outside. You may not know this, but there's an entire planets-worth of summers, friends, sunsets, street lamps, songs, late nights, great films, and night skies waiting for you. Your life is amazing as you want it to be, but first, you have to let it be that way" - Chad Sugg