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‘So you believe in second chances now,’ he said, clarifying.
‘I believe,’ I said, ‘in however many you might need to get it right.’

I am working an overnight, woop. I am already ready for bed and I have so much time to pass by. It is almost two and one kid has been complaining of an ear ache. 

So I have been struggling, of course, with my job. It is not that I dont like it, its not that I am not good at it. Its that I have stressed my body to the point where I can't handle my emotions. The ONLY person I have been able to go to is my mother. I dont want to be the debby downer for my roommate and my significant other never answers and I feel that I bring him down more then anything and that he is doing his best to console me, but it isn't want I am wanting. Technically its maybe what I need, but right now I just want someone to just shake their head and say, I am sorry. 

Ah, tonight is day one of four, I have a interview/putting in my resume for a dream job that I am not truly qualified for. I worked on my cover letter but I am not sure if my heart truly shines through. I want this job more then anything. I can't believe I could have the opportunity of saving animals. What an honor it would be to save the lives of animals that aren't able to voice it themselves. I always look in the eyes of my pets and I feel so lucky that they are mine and that I can take care of them. I always feel that animals have that sad look in their eyes that say, save me, and I can never turn them down. Thankfully there is a pet deposit because if there weren't a limit on how many animals I have I would be the notorious animal lady. but I am okay with that. I dream of one day saving thousands of animals. I want to be known for saving and giving animals a second chance at life. I only dream that God wants this as much as I want it. So please cross your fingers for me.

I am off to finish my duties so I can maybe browse the internet and other useless things.