Not just a #

What weight is beautiful?
What outfit is stylish?
What hair is hippest?

I wont tell you my weight that I was, but it was 31 pounds heavier then I am now. I have gotten many compliments on how good I look and "have you lost weight?" It makes me feel good, but when I think about it, did I not look good when I was 31 pounds heavier?

I have no idea what my "ideal" weight is, and I am sure my dad or a know-it-all could tell me, but what weight makes me FEEL ideal? What makes me think "Hey this is where I should be at, and I look good even if I am not a size anorexic-exercise-aholic." Is it going to be a size zero just so I can get those envious looks, or is it going to be  a size 16 where I can eat whatever I want and have some love that can handle a lot. :) I dont know.

I was probably at my size now when I got called fat and lose by a previous boyfriend. He is now in my burn list, but I have let everyone, including myself, let others say what size I ought to be. So finding out the size that makes me happy is going to be harder then resisting McDonalds. That's hard.